a moan

a moan

and some weight

early morning night

fall into the moon’s whiteness

let the silky stars

kiss your face

rugged and coarse

against my feminine

make me know you

in a different frame

broken down

the old

burn into my eyes

what you’ve

always felt

but never said

strangers arms

stranger’s arms

are like an unknown love

unsure that you yet

dislike the other

before the mirror shatters

and the flaws slant

your smiles

to rain over once warmth

a contented slumber

before familiarity

disfigures your

handsome face

before i attach my limbs

only to be slain

before i trust in lips

that only lie

before howls turn

from pleasure to pain

take my hand now

as we drift

uncommon shine

for tara

your light was the most

uncommon shine

built of fire

and wild

in the spiritual realm

the most generous

sparkle of eye

benevolently kind

have truth so staggering

a blazing love

that roared fierce

biblical truth

of god’s fair love

all things goldenly divine

you had access through

the thin veil to god’s world

so poignantly aware

of things no one else knew

the haze of your human-ness

a normal day in your footprints

was like watching a dream angel

come to life

always constant as a flame

you walked to the top

of the mountain

as effortless as breathing

right into jesus’ arms

you graced the earth

just not long enough

with pure beauty and love

the justices that you spoke

and all the things you fought

for while here

i can only imagine the glimmer

in your heavenly crown –

my heart is torn

an empty hole

in a world now where you aren’t

not ready to release you

but i know i have to

when the full moon

woke me and led me to

the stars in the night

there you were

all around me

the sierra

give me the salty shore

and i’ll turn my cheek

to its endless rolling

i’ll take part no more

nude skinned burnt and kissed

by sun and sand

instead give me the sullen sierra

and i’ll open my hand

to the parched summer earth

looking up wildly

to lonesome vertical heights

and my struggle to climb them

shows me my own depths

goodbye lazy ocean ease

i want to be breathless

and reaching

climbing

exploring

this new land

maybe one day i’ll return famished

but for now i do not know

love erase

if i could go back

and love erase

i’d make it all anew

the purity in your stare

as you traced my face

silent before dawn

for your heart i’d do the same

and search deep its silhouettes

as my touch moved over

its carvings and edges

i’d never grasp

my hold

i’d watch and see

instead of planning everything

i’d let time move

at its glacial speed

until you were ready for me

supple mountain

as the night i’ve seen you

surfacing from the blue blackness

of ocean depths my home

and in the estrangement of our paths crossing

you brought me to my first sunrise

a liquid emergence of light filling my insides rosy

the stained bleeding of my oldness cracked upon

the shimmering rays

as they poured up through the desert terrain

echoing faintly the dreams stirred

and i closed my eyes in wakefulness

bathing in her warmth

horizons of supple mountain

enveloping her orb

gently rolling around the earth’s curves

sensual in her longing to rise

above the lands watching over

the children below

wandering

wilted stab

my love for you was a wilted stab

desperate and clinging

like a root to dirt

coiled calmly numb in slumber

an ancient golden field of openness yearning

for the sun’s rays to caress its grasses

a twisted and simple mystery

of pure innocence

loving the angles and complexities with power

the yearning for it to last forever

denial of the subtle decay

and breaking apart of our heart tangles

lies that whispered sweet nothings and broken truth

where he wanted to be the man of my grand

outpouring

so much to give

but choosing the child side instead of a man

i can’t force you to love me

but you made me believe what your words delivered

but never rang true

waters of the moon

hey my love

i’ve called for you

deep rains there

fallen in spite

out through the window of night

a shadow’s breath comes inside

revenge on my love

for his bewildered sacrifice

hey my love

i’ve called for you this time

in the misty shadows of night

robed in the thick of feathered wings

eyes of soft blue horizon

you come in translucent innocence

that i can only dream

you bear the waters of the moon

that my soul longs to breathe